It has been more challenging than I thought it would be to Trust that my path is still unfolding perfectly. I feel very much off course. It does not help that I’ve had some incredibly emotional moments this week, wondering exactly what’s happening in my Life. I’d like to think at least some of it is connected to the physical detox my body is experiencing – that some old ideas and thoughts and beliefs are being released along with old, impacted food. (Eeeew.) Flush ‘em all away.
Yes, I still know things are shifting and changing, and no matter what, everything is temporary. Everything. The raw food diet phase, the insane exercise program I am working through, the clothes I am wearing, the apartment where I live, the car I drive, the money I have in the bank account, the little scar on my index finger, and everything else. It all changes and evolves into the next experience.
It is a serious adjustment to live in that space of “What happens now?” when Life takes a turn you didn’t anticipate, and I’ve not had great success recently. With all of my spiritual study and Truth knowin’, I am surprised at all the resistance I’ve been feeling around my current path of work and creativity. And of course, when you give that energy attention, everything else unsettling that’s just like it comes to join the party. Like in Field of Dreams: “If you build it, they will come.” If you start down that bad-feeling road, it’s a very short trip before you’re in a seriously super-sucky place. And yet, it is so much easier to reside there than to go to the better-feeling place and stay THERE, especially with the existing circumstances all around you reminding you of the reality.
What else is there to do but ask “What do I need to know here? What is everything that is right about this situation? How can I be of service to others and to the Universe in these circumstances?” And then listen for the answers. And hear them, trust them, and keep moving forward.
